You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

And I'll be on the other end, To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly, If you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall

Bridge:
Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling
Angel, let me help you with your wings

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare

I'll still be there
When you come back down
Take every chance you dare,
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

Ok, it's been a while and you guys have been bothering me to do an update, so here it goes.

I have officially survived my freshman year and evaded the status of academic probation. My GPA did take a bit of a dive in the second semester and I'm hovering around a 2.8, but hey 2.8 isn't half bad when you consider what kind of a load I was taking. In the past year I took 2 graduate level tech classes in the theatre department, 2 general education weed out classes, and a total of 27 credit hours.

I also have worked a shit ton in the last year. I was working as part time hourly in the scenic shop for theatre department almost every all year. I really enjoyed that job, I mean it was really nice o be working closely with the grad students. I mean of course we harassed the hell out of each-other, but it was the first time i honestly felt like I was working with my peers... I mean the union gigs i usually get are filled with middle aged professionals who know what their doing. The pick up gigs i take are usually filled with incompetent kids my age. However, in the shop I was working with grad students, who are a few years older, but they are young enough that they still played around, told jokes that were more than just shock value, and they were competent. It was wonderful, and at the moment I miss them dearly, even Seamus.

Part of the reason I miss them is because I'm currently working at the Musical Arts Center as an electric. The people there are fun to be around, but they are so unproductive that I can't believe they still have jobs, not to mention the attitude they have on knowing their jobs. It's a "figure it out as you go" attitude around there. Now, this is not to be confused with "learn as you go". if your learning as you go, you have some instruction, or at least one person who knows what there doing. This doesn't happen around the MAC and it's driving me insane. They don't care if they do things right the first time. They don't care if it's never gets done the "right way". They are just there for the check, and they take no pride in their craft. This has a lot to do with the fact that the majority of them are not theatre majors, and the MAC has no formal training process. The SA's (i have no clue what that even stands for, but theoretically they are student supervisors of some kind) aren't trained in their individual department, they aren't taught how to lead a group, and for the most part, they are more concerned with making something look like they put a lot of effort into it on the surface, then doing the whole thing with a moderate amount of correctness. OK, now that I have ranted, I'd like to point out that there are several people at the MAC who are competent, but they are so vastly out numbered that they really don't make much of a difference.

The ladies of this past year... well, there have been several, more in the first semester than the second. The only ones that really are worthy of taking note were in the second semester though. Right after winter break, there was lauren. she was a lot of fun, but she had just gotten out of like a 4 year long relationship, and had no interest in doing anything other than messing around, and once I mentioned that i was kinda starting to get attached to her, she moved on. After lauren, there was Liz... Liz and I had a very interesting relationship. You see, she was a student in T225 (stage craft). this class had its lab hours in the scenic shop (where I worked)... So... I was technically dating one of my students for about 2 months this past semester. We kept it on the down low for obvious reasons, but towards the end of the semester, I wanted to come clean and start telling people about us, and she was against it, so we had a bit of a falling out, and we both just got too busy, and it was over. The current girl is damn near perfect. I'm not going to give up her name because most of you know her, and she and I aren't quite ready to have the world judge us. But rest assured, if we do let it become general knowledge, there will be A TON of judgement passed. For now, we aren't even officially together, in fact the last actual conversation we had about "us" was that it's just sex and we're not letting emotions get involved, but since that conversation there has been signs that we both are starting to get attached. Ok, so I know I am, but i swear, she started the getting attached thing before i did... So, we'll see where this leads me.

Ok, i think that is enough information for now...

Take care,
Tyler

I'm going to cut my hair tonight..

Anyone who wants to watch me cut my own hair is welcome to come and supervise...

Why is it that I'm only attracted to women who are very bad for me?

I mean honestly, am I incapable of finding women who aren't insane? who don't just want to party every weekend? and who actually want something more than just a booty call

So, I have decided that I want/need help. thus I am asking for people to set me up on blind dates. There are some guidelines though.

preferred applicants:

- should not be heavily medicated/sedated for mental reasons.... And by heavily medicated I mean more pills every morning than an athlete's morning vitamins... basically I don't want to have to worry about her "forgetting" her pills and deciding to become a crazed homicidal maniac.

- It'd be nice if she has a job... I'm tired of spoiled little princesses who don't understand the concept of work...

- She's got to be sober once in a while... I mean i like a cracked out ho as much as the next guy, but it'd be nice to have a conversation with a girl who isn't picturing me as a talking panda bear (yes it has happened, don't ask)

- non-smoker please... there is no way that I will be able to quit for good if i keep making out with smokers

-intelligence, if she can't figure out how to turn on her own computer, I don't want to explain even more complicated things...

- aggressive: I hate chasing girls and playing "the game", what ever the hell that is... i want one who isn't afraid of telling/showing me exactly what she wants. It'd be a plus if she's bound and determined to get it... (not in a stalkerish way please)

- decisive... I don't want to have to think for some helpless women who feed my rather tasteless woman jokes

- firm... i don't need a push over, i need a girl who isn't afraid to kick my ass and keep me in line...

- understanding of my schedule: i don't know a week, or sometimes even 24 hours before, whether I have to work or not... I'll make plans, and then my phone will ring, and I'll drop everything and go to work... I love my job, and no matter who the girl is, I've had a loving relationship with my job way longer than the girl... so yes the girl takes back seat to my job, at least at first.


Ok, I'm done... I know most of you won't consider trying to hook me up, or even believe me when i say I'm looking for one of those relationship things... (yes i did type it, but i still prefer that we don't speak the scary word). So there are my demands, and obviously no girl that I have ever met meets all of these standards, and i seriously doubt any of you will find one who does, so pick and choose amongst the guidelines and see what you come up with...

Ok, The only thing saving my drunken roommates life right now is the fact that I'm moving out in about 3 weeks...

I mean seriously, he's been drunk since i got up... and that was at 10 am...

You and....
I are... like oil and water
We've been trying, trying, trying
Ohhhhhhh... to mix it up.

We've been....
Dancing... on a volcano.
And we've been crying, crying, crying
Ohhhhhhh... over blackened souls.

Babe, this wouldn’t be the first time.
It will not be the last time.
There is no parasol that could shelter this weather.

I've been....
Smiling... with anchors on my shoulders
And I’ve been dying, dying, dying
Ohhhhhhh... to let them go

Babe, this wouldn’t be the first time.
It will not be the last time.
There is no parasol that could shelter this weather.

Babe, this wouldn’t be the first time.
It will not be the last time.
We tried to believe everything would get better.

We've been....
Lying... to each other.
Hey! Babe! Let's just call it, call it, call it
Ohhhhhhhh.... what it is.

Oil and water (wouldn't be the first time)
Oil and water (will not be the last time)
Oil and water (wouldn't be the first time)

All my life Ive been searching for somethin
Somethin never comes, never leads to nuthin
Nothin satisfies, but Im gettin close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around, and its takinaway
Leaves me with the feelin that I fear the most
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost

Calm down, dont you resist
Your such a delicate rist
And if I give it a twist
Somethin to hold when I lose my grip

Will I find something in there,
To give it just what it needs
Another reason to bleed
One by one, hidden up my sleeve

One by one, hidden up my sleeve

[3x]
Hey, dont let it go to waste
I love it but, I hate that taste
Weight keeping me down

Will I find the believer
Another one who believes
Another one to decieve
Over and over, down on my knees

If I get any closer, i
And if you open up wide
And if you let me inside
On and on, Ive got nuthin to hide

On and on Ive got nuthin to hide

[3x]
Hey, dont let it go to waste
I love it but, I hate that taste
Weight keeping me down

All my life Ive been searching for somethin
Somethin never comes, never leads to nuthin
Nothin satisfies, but Im gettin close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around, and its takinaway
Leaves me with the feelin that I feel the most
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost

Done, done; on to the next one
Done, done, and Im on to the next one
Done, done, and Im on to the next one
Done, done, and Im on to the next one

Done, done, and Im on to the next one
[2x]
Done, done, and Im on the next one
Done, Im done, and Im on to the next

[3x]
Done, done; on the next one

Done, Im done; Im on to the next one

[3x]
Hey, dont let it go to waste
I love it but , I hate that taste
Weight keeping me down

[2x]
Done, done; on the next one

Done, Im done; Im on to the next

I love spring...
I love short shorts...
I love short skirts...
I love thin cotton skirts...
I love tank tops...
I love tight tops...

I love not having to put forth any effort in order to be a perv....

Mama told me, when I was young
Come sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely, to what I say.
And if you do this
It will help you some sunny day.

Ohh take your time... Don't live too fast,
Troubles will come, and they will pass.
Go find a woman and you'll find love,
And don't forget son,
There is someone up above.

(Chorus)
And be a simple kind of man.
And maybe some day you'll love and understand.
Baby be a simple kind of man.
Won't you do this for me son,
If you can?

Forget your lust for the rich man's gold
All that you need is in your soul,
And you can do this if you try.
All that I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied.

(Chorus)

Boy, don't you worry... you'll find yourself.
Follow you heart and nothing else.
And you can do this if you try.
All I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied.

(Chorus)

I am done with her....

All and thats all I have to say about it...